Lull after the storm

Things had been pretty topsy-turvy over the last few months, what with the accident, recovery, joining work after such a big sabbatical, and many other things associated with the same. However, once things started getting back on track, there has been a sort of calm and dull cover enveloping the daily proceedings. In a nutshell, life goes by, currently, at an even pace without much to force the ripple, so to say, in the still waters.

I have been watching a lot of movies again, after a long hiatus caused, initially by the accident and later due to sheer intertia. The inertia was broken by Harry Potter's latest (a fitting movie to break the fast, I think) and though the frequency of at least a movie a week did not return till much later, I am happy that I do not need to think twice any more for something as mundane (as far as the decision making goes, at least).

As for the aftermath of the injury, things have begun to get back on track and my collar-bone, hip-bone, and the hip-joint seem to be functioning properly. The only thing that had me on my tenterhooks even earlier and which is still causing much irritation, even a bit of anguish is my sciatic nerve. For the technically challenged, let it suffice for me to mention that my right foot no longer acknowledges or follows my brain's commands. If it still went over your head, let me submit that I can't operate my right ankle as well as I can my left one.

Though the problem may not seem to be that big an issue, given what I have come out of, but the enormity of the problem is in its being so small and apparently inconsequential. Since I can't operate the ankle, my right foot drops when I walk which prevents me from being sure of my step, ever. Added to it, there is always this feeling of discomfort running right from my toes to my ankle that never allows me to concentrate on anything totally, reminding me time and again that I am not normal, may not be normal for quite some time, perhaps never.

I know that I am cribbing a lot but deep within me, I know that I have been lucky that God has given me an option to stand on my feet again, live my life with respect for my own self. At least, I am not physically, mentally or financially dependent on anyone. Even if I am never going to be absolutely fine and even if that is going to create and leave long lasting scars in my personal life, at least I will have a life.

As for other stuff, I have been living my life at my own terms and have become all the more mature for recent events that I have been associated with. People have been leaving the company in droves and even though the emoluments they shall be receiving sound immensely attractive, it still doesn't make me ponder too much. I was able to meet my friends in Bombay at the closing of last year and realized that it is so very difficult to be doing what you really like to, not to say that I am even close to the same.

Well, till the next time, I think that the above shall have to be it. So see you again pretty soon...ciao!